Going into the clinic this morning left me feeling nothing followed by excitement and then the apprehensive feeling of possible/most likely failure.
The lady doing the ultrasound said nothing except, “please push here”. Maybe I’m gaining weight and it’s harder for them to see my ovaries? When I pushed on my right side it hurt a lot. When I pushed on my left side I felt nothing at all. She clicked away and I fantasized about what she could be measuring. In the past, the clicking meant measuring follicles (in my head) only to find out that actually they weren’t measuring anything meaningful at all.
When I got up, I glanced at the screen and noticed definite larger follicles. I asked. She said that I have two follicles growing on my left side (the side that didn’t hurt). One is 10mm and the other is 11mm. She told me that when I talk to the nurse it will show up as two 10mm because the computer wont register the 11mm. (!!!!!!! GROWTH!!!!!) Then she told me that I have a very lazy cycle and that they should be able to fix this with meds. PARDON ME? (You may remember this technician who called my completely non-responsive cycle lazy in the past). So I told her that actually this is the best response I’ve had yet, it’s better than ever.
Think about it – this is the first time I’ve responded this early (last time I didn’t have a 10mm until CD 18) and I have an 11mm follicle for the first time. It’s a huge success for me!! Best results yet.
My lining is still small… it only grew 1mm to 4mm now. I’m not too worried about that though.
I’m hesitant to feel joy. I can’t wait until my next appointment on Saturday. Ah I hope I have more results, I HOPE I see growth!
QUESTIONS:
- Is my cycle and it’s follicle growth something you can relate to?
- On Letrozole – anyone else experience a lot extreme emotions/anxiety/crying bouts after taking the last pill? I took my last pill on Friday and it seemed that I had serious anxiety/crying Saturday, less so but still bad on Sunday, and it continued to lessen each day until about Wednesday. Today isn’t too bad at all